Swimming with dolphins has opened up many things in my life. Over the years, I have seen how people who come to the lagoon begin to change. They laugh more freely, cry, sing, dance, and express parts of themselves they might have held back for years. Something about the dolphins seems to unlock our hearts, our creativity, and the courage to be who we really are. For me, that gift was very personal. They gave me my voice back.
But it wasn’t only the dolphins. It was also the time in my life. I had already started reconnecting with myself. Yoga had helped me so much to find a connection back to my soul. I had begun to feel confident again, and it slowly brought me back to my guitar and to music. But my throat was still blocked. I was playing and humming, but I still didn’t really sing.
And when I came to the dolphins, something unblocked in me. Suddenly, I felt how my voice came back. A friend in Egypt asked me to record myself singing after we had a long conversation about my life story. It was scary to open up again, but I had decided that I didn’t want to live my life in fear anymore. So I learned a song, and with a lot of support and cheering from my friends, I found the courage to record it. And I posted it on Facebook. Maybe it was one of the scariest things I have ever done in my life. But when I shared it, people were so supportive. What surprised me the most was that my voice felt almost the same as when I had left it all those years before. It felt like it had been waiting there, almost exactly as it was when I was eighteen or nineteen. It was very young. It has changed a lot during these seven years.
2019, my first time singing in front of people in 20 years.
Many things started happening with my voice. When I discovered sound healing and my singing bowls entered my life, something opened even more. I went to kirtans (mantra singing circles), I started co-hosting them on my retreats, and I began to feel something very special happening in my voice when I was in Sataya. Especially one moment during a sound healing session under the stars. I was holding a bowl and suddenly I felt as if something was just channeling through me, and my voice came out in a way I had never heard before. From that moment it just kept growing stronger and stronger. With every retreat, every sound healing session, every kirtan I led, my voice kept expanding. And I started to feel that it wasn’t only about me anymore. Something was moving through me from the source. My guests told me how their hearts opened when I sang, and I began to think that maybe my voice had become a healing tool.
Today, when I swim with dolphins, I sing every time I am in the water with them. I always sing in the water. I believe that what the dolphins are doing is empowering us to be who we really are. They unlock so much in us. They open our hearts and they unlock our abilities and our gifts. They help us not take life so incredibly seriously, but to be free to explore, to try things, and to find our joy and passion again. It feels like they open up our whole creative energy. They open the sacral chakra, the heart, and the throat. I just feel incredibly grateful for what the dolphins gave me when they helped me find my voice again.
And now there is so much happening in my life with music. My sound healing work is really taking off. So much is evolving. I am creating music, writing songs, and singing more than ever before. My voice keeps getting stronger and stronger. Not just with my songs but with my writing and my speaking. I found my voice in so many ways, like through this blog and this newsletter.
During a lotus ceremony and sound journey in November, it suddenly became very clear inside me that I didn’t just want to sing. I wanted to create music in every possible way. Something new was awakened in me. And on last New Year’s Eve, instead of being around friends and celebrating, I was sitting alone in my apartment in El Quseir recording music. It was the first time I had ever done any kind of recording like that. Once again, I could feel how my voice was opening even more. I felt creatively on fire. And I know this is only the beginning.
Now I feel so happy to be here in Dahab, surrounded by musicians again. My life is filled with support and creativity, and after more than twenty years, I am back in that place of simply playing with music again. No judgment. Just exploring, creating, and enjoying it. It feels amazing to see how the circle is closing. And I have the dolphins to thank for that.
I think about that moment sometimes, twenty-five years ago, when my voice got blocked. And strangely, I feel grateful for it. It gave me the space to develop other parts of myself that are now such an important part of the medicine I share. My yin yoga, my retreats, my coaching, and all the knowledge I collected along the way.
My voice came back at exactly the right moment. And now it is time for even more sirens to awaken and sing.
If you're curious about that moment when I put myself out there on Facebook, I decided to share it with you. And I hope my story can encourage someone to challenge themselves and show up, just the way they are.